The Man
With the Green Hat
I grew into a man, at the age of eleven, in August of
1942. I can remember the colors of that
summer, and the sounds. It began with
promise, of new life and victory.
We listened to the man on the radio talk about the war,
how the Japs and the Nazis were whipping our hides at both ends. Daddy was one of a handful of men left in the
county because Mama wouldn’t let him go.
The reports weighed on him and there was an unspoken tension between my
parents each evening. A broadcast would
come on about a thousand men dead in France and Daddy would look at Mama with
this longing in his eyes.
We lived on a farm but Daddy was a mechanic and business
had been slow. We had no crops but a
garden, no livestock but a few cattle.
Daddy figured he was more useful to the nation as a soldier than to us
as a mechanic.
Mama was six months along when Daddy left in the spring
of 1942. Mama hadn’t been part of the
decision, but she spent almost every minute of every day by the radio listening
to the news man. Daddy wanted to fight
Hitler but the Army wanted him in the Orient fighting Japs. We got a couple of letters from him while he
was in training. Mama cried over hers so
much they nearly fell apart.
But, anyway, this is my story about the man with the
green hat and I promise I’ll get to him.
My brother, Stuart, was born in the middle of May just a
couple of weeks before school let out. I
remember the birth, too. Ms. Johnston
lived down the road a couple of miles and she and Mama were friends. She’d birthed a couple of babies in her time,
especially for the folks that couldn’t afford the hospital.
I remember my mama crying and cussing and yelling my
daddy’s name. It seemed like it took
forever and I was too tired to go to school the next day. And Stuart came out with a full head of hair,
too. I remember those green eyes, how
they seemed too big for his face. And he
had such a grip.
I had seen the man in the green hat before, in the meadow
once and another time he was fishing at our pond. But, I almost always saw him in the
garden. Mama never understood why we
never had any strawberries and I gave up trying to tell her about the man. He loved strawberries. I don’t think I ever saw him take anything
else.
I was around seven years old the first time I saw
him. It must have been early in the
summer because I remember all the bluebonnets, how the wind could make them
dance around my knees. I heard him
before I saw him, singing in a strange language.
I followed the song and saw the tip of a hat bobbing in
and out of view. It was green, pointed
and looked like felt or something similar.
His voice was gravelly, and rather high-pitched. He might have stood a head taller than my
knee.
He was headed in the direction of the pond, or so I
thought. The bluebonnets gave way to
shorter grass and it was then I finally saw him clearly, from behind. He was tiny but proportional. His outfit was blue and brown and his boots
were the same shade of green as his hat, which was about half as tall as his
body.
There was a satchel on his back brimming with
strawberries. It was early for
strawberries so the ones he did have were on the small side. He jumped around a rabbit hole and some of
the berries fell to the ground. He
stopped singing and turned to gather his fallen treasure. That’s when he saw me and I saw his face for
the first time.
His face was like a man’s but different in a way I’ve
never fully understood. If I put his age
in human years I would estimate he was in his late forties; however he moved
like a much younger man. I will never
forget his eyes, a shade of yellow I’ve never before seen on a living thing.
He saw me and we both stopped. He considered me with his lively, amber eyes
for a moment.
“Y’ave gut strawb’ries,” he said.
“Good strawberries?” I asked
He nodded, retrieved his prize, and sprinted away. He moved like a squirrel and I couldn’t keep
up. I thought he was going to jump into
the pond but at the last second he veered right and disappeared into the tree.
Mama didn’t believe any of it but Daddy loved to hear my
stories. As time passed I began to
embellish them, I suppose, as any kid would.
Stuart was a good baby.
He hardly cried at all. But, Mama
didn’t seem to notice, him or anything else.
Nowadays they call it postpartum depression but back then no one really
knew much about it. Daddy hadn’t sent a
letter and it would be a few months before the Army told us why. He died in the Pacific, on or near some
island called Guam. But, that summer was
full of hope, that we’d win the war, Daddy would come home, and Mama would stop
crying.
Mama was so sad all the time I started raising Stuart
myself, as best I knew how. She fed him
but I could see in her eyes that she didn’t love him. When he cried to be changed she just turned
the radio up louder, weeping as reports came in about the dead. Daddy was probably already dead by that time
and maybe she felt it.
I saw the man in the green hat one time that summer
before it happened, my story that is. Only
a few strawberries had come in and the man in the green hat was running away
from the garden toward the bluebonnet meadow with an empty satchel. Perhaps his disappointment at not finding
strawberries had something to do with the fact that this was the first time I’d
not heard him singing.
I spent a lot of time with Stuart, reading him the same
books over and over, taking him for walks outside. Sometimes I would sneak Clark, our dog, into
the house so Stuart could see him. I
think Stuart liked that, too, because his eyes always got so big when he saw
that dog. He’d laugh and hold out his
arms like he wanted a hug.
It was toward the end of July the night it happened. School was still a month or so off and that
was just fine by me. Mama was basically
a ghost by then but I had Stuart.
I remember waking up and staring at the moonlight on the
floor, the shape of the shadows on the ground.
I can feel the breeze coming through my window, cool to my exposed skin
while the rest of my body was somewhat sweaty beneath my sheets. There were no crickets chirping which I found
strange, but there was another sound which was familiar to me. It was singing, the same happy tune I’d heard
half a dozen times before. I was so
tired, not in my mind but in my body. It
was like there was a weight on me, some invisible hand holding me fast to my
bed.
I heard Stuart cry, a sound I recognized was from
agitation and usually meant he needed to be changed. I managed to lift my head a few inches but
the weight forced me down again. Stuart’s
cries were louder, more urgent. New
voices accompanied the singing.
I was able to grasp the window sill and pull myself up,
as the singing and crying mingled together and it seemed to be coming from
outside. I rested my chin on the sill
and looked out the window. The man with
the green hat was pulling a wagon behind him, skipping away into the
meadow. I could not summon the energy to
do anything. I could not save him. Stuart was in the wagon, crying as he was
stolen away from me.
I woke the next day in a panic. The memory of the night before was hazy and
would not regain clarity for years.
There was a baby crying and the fear I had about Stuart
having been taken in the night faded away as my grogginess did. Even as I followed the cries I knew there was
something different about them. There
was a harsh edge to the wail, something I’d never heard from Stuart.
The baby in the crib was not Stuart and did not look
human at all. Its head was large and
misshapen, like a light bulb. Where my
brother had a mop of brown hair this thing had pale wisps, white if they were
any color at all. Its eyes were almond
shaped and angled upwards. Worst of all
was its mouth. Its teeth, a feature
Stuart did not possess, were like broken rocks and there was no logic to them.
Its skin was translucent to an extent and I can still
recall the sight of its little heart beating.
It hardly moved but its cries filled the room. I could not understand how such a tiny thing
could make such a noise. When it
screamed I felt as though my teeth would shatter right inside my mouth. It stole the breath from my lungs.
Mama didn’t notice any difference; she just sat closer to
the radio to hear the news man better.
She tried to nurse the thing once that first day. She screamed and it did too. She left him on the floor of the living room
and hid in her bedroom for the rest of the day.
There was a trail of blood droplets beginning at her chair and
continuing through the hall. Mama came
out once that evening to make dinner. I
tried to talk to her, to tell her about the man in the green hat and how the
thing sleeping in the crib was not Stuart.
If she understood me she made no indication to that effect.
That was the first day with the thing that was not Stuart.
As small as the thing was it seemed to grow smaller. Mama would not allow it to feed and it would
not swallow anything I offered.
Everything I placed in its mouth would leak out the sides, pool in the
hollows of its cheeks or trickle into its ears.
And it only stopped screaming when it slept which it did, thankfully,
for most of the day. It produced no
waste but I left it in a diaper because the sight of its genitals was so
disturbing. It was obviously male but
gnarled appendage between its legs was as attractive as its smile.
When the postman left the letter about Daddy I kept it to
myself. I thought it was better for Mama
to have hope. That was all she had by
then.
I didn’t have Stuart and I didn’t know what to do. I tried to treat the thing like Stuart but I
couldn’t. I hated it. Mama and Clark hated it, too.
After a week or so I was sure the thing was going to die
and I secretly hoped that it would. It
never ate, ever. It was barely strong
enough to move its arms and legs and could not lift its head which seemed to
swell in size as its body withered. It
cried throughout the night but over the course of days the screams became
mewling, so soft I could no longer hear it.
When it mewled I felt pity for it.
I missed Stuart but the thing was so helpless, so pathetic. How could I not feel something?
One morning I woke and heard what sounded like cooing,
like normal baby babbling and I thought at once that Stuart had returned. I rushed for Stuart’s room and walked into a
massacre. A streak of blood trailed from
the crib, through the room and the hallway to the open front door. The thing was engorged, its heart beating
fiercely. It was as healthy, and happy
for the first time.
I followed the blood to the porch where I found a crimson
pelt, and an assortment of bones. That
was all that was left of my dog, matted fur and bones. I stood there for awhile, the rage building
inside while I looked at the remains, only carrion then and host to about a
million flies. I did not know how the
thing that was not Stuart could kill a seventy pound dog when it could not lift
its own head. I did not know why the
likely howls from the dog did not wake me or Mama.
I returned to the crib with a knife in my hand. I stood over the crib and stared at it. Its teeth were stained brown from blood and I
recognized the vigor in its eyes as the same liveliness I’d seen in the man
with the green hat. I left the thing in
the cradle and stayed outside most of the day, walking through the meadow which
had lost most of its flowers by then.
My hatred had not lessened in the hours that had passed
since finding the remains of my dog on the porch. I’d lost everything that August. My father was dead, my brother missing, my
dog dead, and Mama was as good as dead.
I didn’t know if my brother was dead but I had to hope that he
wasn’t. I had to hope for something.
At home Mama was cleaning the blood in the hallway. I started to speak to her but recognized the
vacancy in her eyes. She was lost in her
own mind, a world in which her husband had not left to die in some jungle half
a world away. I found the Killed in
Action letter crumbled on the kitchen table.
I wondered if Mama even understood what the words meant. I wonder if she knew her husband was never
coming home.
A few nights later I woke and found myself unable to move
again. I heard screams, terrible screams
choked with blood. They were an animal’s
scream although I was not sure what creature it might have been. I fought against the paralysis and could not
move an inch. And so I listened to the
screams that gradually died away, and then the sound of feeding. I listened until I slept and the sounds
became part of my nightmares.
I did not recognize the remains left on the porch but
whatever it was had been big.
As summer was nearing its end my life fell into a
horrible cycle. Every couple of days I
woke to the sound of screams. Sometimes
there were animal parts on the porch and sometimes there was just blood. One night toward the end of August I woke in
such a way that left me know choice but to react.
I heard the sound of singing coming through
the open window as I woke, probably after midnight. It was the song I’d heard the man with the
green hat sing in the past but that was not my immediate concern. Beneath the singing but much closer to my own
person was the sound of muffled mewling.
I felt the weight of the thing’s head on my chest and its frail arm
holding with impossible strength, to my midsection. And, once again, I was unable to move.
Its tiny hand felt like a dull blade prodding my ribs and
I could not move. I smelled blood and
felt wetness on my bare chest as the thing whined and smacked its lips. It was responding to the song from outside,
the voice of the man in the green hat as he stole away into the night with a
satchel of strawberries on his back. In
the pitch-black darkness I could only see the pale haze of hair pooled beneath
his hat. I do not recall falling asleep but did at some point. I roused in the morning with dried blood and
slaver crusted on my skin.
Daddy taught me how to set traps for rabbits. Mama said if I caught one she’d make rabbit
stew with pie for dessert that very day.
I tried for months with little success until the year before he left for
war. I came home from school and left my
books at the door so I could check the three snares I’d set. The first was empty but the second was
not. I recall seeing the animal, a
young, brown jackrabbit, from behind. It
twitched and pulled and strained against the trap, the thin wire eating into
its flesh. It gnawed at the paw and drew
blood. Rabbit stew lost its appeal that
moment.
The animal went wild as I neared, bucking like the bulls
at the rodeo. I pinned him to the ground
by the neck and released him from the trap after some struggling. The rabbit limped away and left small puddles
of blood behind him. I found it a few
days later, dead beneath a weeping willow.
I picked through the strawberries, leaving the best on a
particular patch where I laid my snare.
Then I could only wait.
Two nights later I woke to two different sounds. I recognized the sound of the thing that was
not Stuart snoring in its room, a sound that steadied my heart. The other sound was an angry, small
voice. Rather than risk waking either
Mama or the snoring thing I crawled out of my open window and landed outside.
The language was foreign but the voice was familiar. The man with the green hat was caught in the
snare and fighting with all of his strength.
“Where’s my brother?”
I asked.
The little man looked up at me and there was much anger
in his eyes. The light of the half moon
was enough for me to see his face. In
the years between that night and today I have come across portrayals of
creatures that possessed some of his qualities, gremlins and medieval paintings
of devils. He had a silver beard that
did not match the cotton-colored hair on his head. His green hat was on the ground.
Though never taking his eyes off of me he struggled to
reach something nearby. I kneeled and
grabbed the thing which seemed to merely be a smooth stick. He screamed when I took it and fought harder
against the snare.
“Where is my brother?”
He did not reply but snapped with his little teeth and
spit at me.
I held the smooth stick in my hand. It was only a few inches long and narrowed to
a blunted point. I pointed it at the
little man and he screamed again and held his hands in front of his face.
“Brudder in th’ tree.”
“My brother is in the tree?”
He nodded.
“What does that mean?”
“Dem witch tuk ‘im.
Dem tuk ‘im to th’ tree an’ gon kip ‘im.”
“What is that thing in Stuart’s room?
He lunged at me and yelled from the pain of the snare
tightening biting into his ankle.
The anger began to build in me, to fill my body. I felt the smooth stick warm in my hand and
it shook, vibrated some. It glowed from
the base and a little spark shot out of the tip. The spark exploded with a brief popping sound
when it contacted the earth.
The little man and I stared at each other for a moment
that seemed like a long time but probably wasn’t. The hatred in his eyes was intense.
“ You want this back?”
He spit at me.
“I want my brother back and I want you to take that thing
away.”
He dropped his head at this point, tired from fighting.
“Dem witch not give ‘im to me.”
The hatred was gone from his eyes and in its place was a
sort of helpless calm. In the silence
afterward I could hear the thing that was not Stuart bleating in its crib like
a lost calf. The man with the green hat
did not look about to speak anytime soon.
I did the only thing I could at the time. I bribed him.
When I freed the little man I pointed the stick at him
like a gun. He held his hands up and
sort of slinked away toward the house. A
few minutes passed and I waited outside, firing off sparks with the stick. The front door opened and the man with the
green hat appeared, ferrying the strange, crying babe on his back.
He threw something at my feet and said, “Dat his. Kip it eff you wan.”
It was about the size of a toothpick, and as smooth as
the stick I held in my right hand.
We walked into the night together. The thing that was not Stuart fell asleep but
it roused a bit as the man in the green hat tripped over rocks and around
holes. We walked through the empty
meadow toward the pond. The man with the
green hat did not sing.
At the tree the little man stopped and turned to face
me. The baby on his back could not have
weighed ten pounds but seemed to bend the man in half.
“Gib me a bit o’ time,” he told me.
He disappeared inside of the tree, with the baby, and
left me there in the dark.
The minutes that followed were the longest of my
life. I wondered if he might appear with
a hundred of his kind, little ones with smooth sticks. Or, even worse, what if he’d sent the witches
after me?
A few crickets gave me company during those minutes but
things were otherwise silent.
The man appeared, holding Stuart underneath his
armpits. Stuart was asleep and I was not
sure how considering how much he was being jostled about. The man passed Stuart to me and I held my
brother on my hip. He was very heavy and
seemed too large for a baby of only a few months.
“We have a deal?”
The man with the green hat nodded, a new green hat was on
his head. The other was still amid the strawberries.
I handed him his stick and he smiled, running his fingers
along its smooth grain. There was a
second where I thought he might point the stick at me but he didn’t. He turned and ran into the tree, vanishing.
It’s surprising how quickly life returns to normal after
an experience like that. Stuart grew
into a normal child and a smart man. I
did time in Korea while Stuart went to school.
But, for the first few months things were strange. Stuart was about the size of a two year old
when I took him from the little man and already talking. On paper he was not even six months old but
he could walk and talk. He didn’t speak
English, though, and it took a year to set him right. Mama came around by Christmas. I think she knew more than she let on.
I made good on my end of the deal, too. I didn’t see the man with the green hat as
much after that night and only a few times as an adult. Every now and then I found him fishing but,
more often than not, he was gathering strawberries from the patch I planted all
around the tree. Sometimes I sleep with
the window open and I swear I can still hear him singing.
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